bikhar gaya insaan

na choot saka woh daag jism ka
jo har din mene jiya hai
na toot saka woh hausla man ka
jo har din tumne toda hai
na beet saka woh pal gam ka
jo aasuo mein baha hai
na bhul saki woh din
mar mar ke jo mene jiya hai

ek choti se farmaish thi
ek saair ki umeed
guzar rahi thi har roz us gali se
jaha tumne kiya basera tha
khoon ke cheete ab bhi milte hai
jaha mere armano ne apni aakri saas li
woh kya dushmani thi bhaiya
jiske karan tumne meri khushi li?

raat ka andhara ab apna lagta hai
saware se daarti hu
kadam jab bahar rakhu
nighao se bachti hu
chehra mera khobsoorat tha
aaj mein dupette ka sahara leti hu
jab dil mein farmish jagti hai
us din ke yaad mein jeeti hu

ek pal mein beet gayi zindagi
lakho laashe mein ek meri bhi ho sakti thi
tuti nahi hu, bas bikhar gayi hu
sahara nahi, pyar dhundti hu
kya karu apne aap ko sambhal kar
jab har kone mein maut ho

din din laash gir rahi hai
haan bahut aabadi hai!
har maut mein hazaro sapne
kya yeh nahi barbadi hai?
kaun hai aisa bhagwan ya allah ya guru
jisne kaha kurban karo?
janat dundte hai jo
phele ek acha insaan bano

Coming undone

i cannot tie the threads
that have come undone
i cannot hold back the tears no more
that have swept all hope
i cannot hide behind a smile
when the cracks are there for everyone to see
i cannot try anymore
when the sand has slipped from my hands to the floor

i cannot give in
when i have nothing left to give
i cannot comfort you
when my heart itself is blue
i cannot stay away
when your arms are all i need
i cannot stay strong
when i know our souls meet

i cannot pretend or lie
when tears escape my eye
i cannot hide behind the mask
when even breathing becomes a task
i cannot run any longer
as my grip on reality is not stronger..
i cannot dream of us
when promises have become dust

and who do you thing you are?
walking in and out alone
when my hands are spread and i beg
when i kneel down and try to remind you all that you said
who do you think you are?
when you walk out that door
stranding me lonely away from the shore
where do i sail to, where do i go?
the storm is coming, there is hope, no more.

Our first meeting

softly the tear fall un noticed
i caress the pen in my hand
my shield from this world
a slow sigh escapes
a gush of wind blows near my nape
a hushed whisper, an awkward smile
a distant touch across the aile
the rushing of people to destinations unknown
of laughter and sorrow left untold

where is the friend in this world that i seek
when does the light from this cloud of sadness peak?
am i to stay here alone forever
or will someone crossover my tears river
when will i have that person to hold
the one the fairy tales told?
when will lonliness say goodbye
at every turn, why does it drop in to say hi?
in the sea of faces, who do i find
who belongs to me, body and mind?
where do i go to find the peace
my heart is breaking piece by piece
why cant i stop, why doesnt this end
when will god be kind enough to send...

stars dim and the flowers shiver
as i wilter away in the sky's silver
the raindrops cant quench my thirst
where do i go where this doesnt hurt?

i hold my pen and my words are all that matter
i hear your lonliness in the inane chatter
as you howl with laughter, i hear your cry
while you run from person to person, i see your hearts shy
when you greet with confidence, i see your hands shake
when you beam a smile, i can see what it takes

you look across, our eyes meet
you look again, at my empty seat
you smile a smile i know so well
pitying me for being lonely and dwell..
i look at you and smile a smile you dont know yet
loneliness introduced us, thats how we met.

Bird's eye view

Run, hide
If they see you
Don't panic, slide
Hide ur beauty
Shield the sorrow
Race to the goal
Let aside worries for tomorrow

Stop if you can
Look around the hustle
The leaves you crushed
They used to rustle

Slow down a second
Smell the flowers
Before you plucked them
For bees, they had enchanted power

Don't run for the shade
Feel the drop
When the skies open
See us dance and hop

Yet you hurry past
Man with his mission
The tv is calling
The wine is falling
No time to stop
No time to see
I am just a peacock
Watching you be

As I sit in my hedge
What could I know
The wonders of the world
That I know as my whole
Is what you are running to see


From the comfort of ur bed
Documentaries about leaves
Shows about drought and rain
Campaigns for saving the planet
Are brainstormed in great detail

Stop dear human
Look around you and see
What you seek
Is what makes me

When I find it all
Near my hedge
Wish you could see it too
Feeling the world on your race towards the bed

side by side

The blanket of life
that god sew
is unraveling
thread by thread

the temple of love
that trust built
is collapsing
step by step

the faith in humanity
that love created
is breaking
tear by tear

the darkness of the night
that sadness brought
is fading
ray by ray

the panic in my heart
that loneliness brought
is subsiding
beat by beat

the hope of tomorrow
that strength has created
is rebuilding
second by second

the will to smile
that life is bringing
is growing
with you by my side

Didi

An old poem i found recently :)


A single bond of unspoken words,
So much laughter and oh! so much hurt,
A single star on a cloudy night,
When no one is in sight,
A single leaf on a bare tree,
The only one who lets you be,
A single tear on a smiling face,
The only one who's life yours can't pace,
A single hand in a crowded room,
Who lets you know that this too will pass soon,
A single laugh that fills your heart,
Who mocks your precious piece of art,
A single person who you love so much
That it fill your heart with such...
A single person who you hate too,
So many things you had to do...
A single person who is all this and more,
The one brings your boat safely to the shore,
Your rock, your security blanket, yeah that's her!
You may know her by many names;
but for me she'll always be my doting elder sister...

Missing you is part of everyday

i open my eyes
i catch a glimpse
could it be?
is it you?
if i hold out my hand
will i touch you?
if i smell in the air
will i breathe you?
if i open my eyes
will it be really you?

i want to fall asleep
a place when you and me
we are together
a place where reality
is forever

but the morning calls
the rays so harsh
reality is now
eyes are open
dreams depart
you are a mist
all i can feel is a kiss

goodbye you said
before i slept
hoping the night will swallow
the pain or me
yet here i am
and so is the pain

together we stand
alone i am
you left
i stayed
love was on its way
but it strayed..