Terrorism

Another attack, the same fate
its intensity how do you rate?
so much bloodshed, so many tears
wholl console the baby who cries is fear?
so much terror, but what is the goal?
every soul is again left with another hole
the tears have stopped
the eyes are dry
the voice is dead
no one heard the cry
the spirit of mumbai has been crushed
the last terrorist is yet to be flushed
blame game has begun
emotions and remorse, the terrorists have shunned
and heartless they shot killing them all
heartless the politicans rave on,
killing whats left of us all
united we were to stand
shinning in splendour
broken we are
crying over politicans blunder
dont give us promises of a better life
when the life we have is under the knife
dont give us hopes of a better tomorrow
when we are yet to overcome yesterdays sorrow
dont give us facts about the terrorists religion
when we all just want to look at the bigger vision
please Mr politican, please Mr terrorist
fight between equals dont bring us amidst
killing innocent in the name of god
using innocents death for the name of politics
where did the love go, where is humanity hiding?
we did what you said, we were abiding..
the questions are endless, the answers none
in the battle between love and hate
alas! it seems hate won
it seems hate won
it seems hate won

Happiness

a long time ago i was scared
thought love would never find its way..
i waited for someone to show me the sign
who was that one who was all mine?
but the wait was in vain
nothing changed
nights soaked in tears and days in rain
****
the sun shone when you walked in
nothing has been the same since
days are rushed and nights are short
too much to do, no time to sort
loneliness has no time, the smiles refuse to go away
in the maze of life, happiness seems to have found its way
dont remember those days of long gone
i know now with you i belong
my past you earsed in five months alone
warmth from your love, in my heart is shone
apart we might be, together we are in soul
with blessings and love, my world is whole

Finally...

pages and pages i wrote
tears soaked
waiting for the light to shine
searching for the one whos mine..

loneliness found its place
happiness could not replace
but love was the answer to it all
my heart spoke, and you heard the call..

like lightening you came
nothing has been the same..
the tears turned from sorrow to joy
from loud and confident suddenly i went to shy and coy

you held my hand and i knew ull stay
you made promises i never thought anyone would say
you held me close and i knew i could fly
because at last this relationship will never end with a goodbye

youll stay forever in my heart and soul
with you by my side i feel complete and whole
with stars in my eyes, and colour in my cheeks
i reminisce our wonderful time and look forward to the coming years, months and weeks!

my first goodbye to manchester

oh sun! don't shine for tomorrow
with each ray I shall await the pending sorrow!
My first goodbye to this life
to be strong is all i strive

Cant show how the memories dance
teasing and taunting leaving me in a trance
nostalgia engulfs, the days gone by....
I just cant make myself face its time to say goodbye

The jokes, the smiles, the moments shared
all gone too soon ....
from the present to reminisces we have reached already
My eyes are wet, my heart feels unsteady

forgot that this is the way of life today
whats present is all we have to make us stay
the past is gone, saved in our hearts and mind
for when in need, from them strength we will find

Letting go of yesterday
Getting ready to embrace today
Learning lessons for tomorrow
makes you think that moments shared are stories we had borrowed

So farewell to you my dear friend
I hope to see you again in one of lifes bends
Keep me in your heart even if i get lost on the way
For I know from you mind I may go astray

And i'll keep you in my heart for today and forever
Forgetting you or this life, never, never
A last embrace is all i have to give
For another chapter is opening for us to live....

infatuation!

slipping through the quick sand called life
we find ourselves at the place which we thought we had left behind
the slow move towards the goal is distracted
all cause you looked at me and my heart reacted

the practical way of life, now astray
in the sunshine of love, there is no hope's ray
with butterflies in my stomach and my heart in my mouth
my lips stay sealed, while my brain shouts

how do i run from myself i wonder?
when there is a smile on my face through rain and thunder
no pieces of wisdom affects anymore
nothing scares me as i sail happily to the shore

and when we talk i try to pretend
while every emotion in me bends
i laugh a little too loud, i speak a little too soft
i listen amazed even when you are describing a dingy loft!

stop heart! listen to me i say!
i just met you in the month of may!
yet my life seems different, brighter and whole
love is the artist and the canvas is a piece to behold

what does this feeling have stored for me?
will you look and see?
or will you get lost in the sea of faces
as another story left incomplete in lifes mazes?

will i have the courage to be bold?
will my hearts love be enough for you to be sold?
so many questions but the answers are none
cause when i see you my heart stops and my feet run

love vs life

A kind gesture, a long mile
A pat on the shoulder, a brush of a smile
A stroke of the cheek, a lone tear
A gentle embrace, goodbye to fear

Kindness so soft, heart so serene
A tinkle of a laugh, nothing mean…
A small gift, an overwhelming sense
An attempt to converse, letting down of defense…

Yet too fast we run, missing the signs
The destination ironically we left behind…
Where are we going? Whose their too wait?
With everyone running, love is left on fate…

Love replaced by like, dislike with hate
Spontaneity over, relationships are delayed
Looking for appreciation, we step on each others toe
When all we wanted was someone to show…

Yet someone for others, we can’t be
No one appreciates us you see
So no kind gestures, no pat on the shoulder
Need to win, become the fence or the boulder

Tears are falling, no time for a hug
No time to laugh, emotions we need to shrug
Gifts are a luxury, materialistic possessions you see
Conversation is a privilege, hurried sentence if you please

The defenses are up, the heat alone
Where is the world our mothers has shown?
Reality is a race, sometimes you loose
But what is winning, is for you to choose

nhsf

Tear by tear I smile a smile
With memories to last a thousand miles
In my heart I know the year will stay
Engraved for life, in its own way
When scared and lonely I stumbled here
A place where I overcame my fear
It was here that I joined a group of people I met
Who I never thought would accept..Yet with open arms they met me
Giving me a family
Others like me followed too
Because people who care we find are few
As the year began challenges came
And like players in a game
We stood through them all as a team
Always finding a shoulder to lean…
I found a friend at every step
No one was different;From the president to the uni rep
As event after event we learnt new…
We gave our positions the attention that was due
And sometimes we fellDisheartened by our failures we dwelled
But success always came soon after
Tears brushed aside, there was room for only laughter
Friends ive made for life
I hopethey truly made it easier to cope
home away from home they said
into their hearts and homes they led…
and alone I came, together we stand
but time is like sandit slips away from our hands
a year is over, its for new faces to come
it’s a moment for grief; and relief for some
and I know now how they felt
when they gracefully dealt
giving what was so close to their heart
after working together they were apart
now its our turn we must follow suit
lead the new to the familiar route
it seems its time to say goodbye to the old
with new times, to new changes we need to mold
its farewell to us, and welcome to you
give everything you have, and then some more too

resign...

softly the tears fall
unanswered were my calls
the dreams we saw lie shattered
my confidence in love, again, battered
where do i run ?
where do i hide ?
how do i leave these memories behind?
the scars are atleast mine
through them what once was will shine
the words were again empty promises, unkept
my heart unfortunately they swept
and i rode high in my illusions of forever
thinking through rain and storm, now and ever

then reality came, and the thread snapped
from my dreams I awoke with the clap

now the sun shines, but the light is dim
it doesn't reach the corners that you filled
cobwebs grace the space, tears grace my eyes
with another piece chipped, time flies
just yesterday we spoke of tomorrow
today i await another day in sorrow
alone i stand, recounting my mistakes
wishing life would give us a retake

together you stand, a happy smile
trying to cover the distance mile by mile
not towards me but away
with tears in my eyes, i embrace myself and sway....

Mum

Written for mum few hours before she arrived in manchester for her first visit last year in march!



I sit alone singing a song
Waiting for the person to whom I belong
You sit alone waiting to come
Softly songs of prayers you hum

So far yet so near
My mother, you are so dear
Tears threaten to spill as I smile
Distance is lessening, mile by mile

In few hours you'll be by my side
Pleasure I try but cannot hide
Lonliness has been my friend too long
So I wait, eagerly, for the one to whom I belong

I think of the months, years and days
all the moods, tantrums and phase
illness and celebration and then more
exam fevers and jubilation for the scores

Each moment is precious and full of love undefined
For people like you are so refined
WIth grace and dignity you passed each road
Holding everyone close, when everything around us erode...

The love you give is priceless you see
It's made us what we wanted to be...
and days when self doubt sprouts
Your belief, in us, dispels all doubts

My arms wait to embrace you, tight
longing for the gossip, jokes and fights
You nurtured us and became our friend too
Never stopping, questioning, just letting us do...

Trust in us you have always showed
Even as we walked on different roads
and today you enter my world
glimpses you'll get of all that I have told

Mom, all that I am is you
To reflect your soul, what I won't do...
To make you proud, I dream
For out of all, you are the cream!

it is not the moment which defines its prfoundness but the profoundness that defines the moment. each moment links chapters to the stories of our life and yet we find ourselves wondering when God wills atrt scripting the story. the blankness of the moment is a story in itself uniting millions of people in its helplessness and isolation.

ive seen the smiles and ive seen the tears
ive seen the victories and ive seen the fears
i know happiness and i know sorrow
i know contentment and i know the feeling of being hollow
im been the shadow and ive given the light
i have been one with the soil and ive seared through the height
i have blossemed with the rain
and i have wilted with the pain
yet i have no story to tell
silence yells
i have felt all that was to feel
yet i am numb
i have outwitted many
but infront of life i feel dumb
the stars shine too bright
the moon can cause a fright
i run from my own shadow, scared
unable to befrind, unable to bare
and secrets i hold close to my heart
ending the story before it starts

life

the game of life won in the end
the rules no matter how much i tried to bend
scattered are the hopes and dreams we saw
the good and evil, the sacred and the flawed

so much to achieve, so little time
so much to say, but cant always find the rymes
the stories are unfolding
lifes moulding

the rivers flow to the ocean
each action gets fate in motion
and no matter how preciecely you plan
destiny always seems to have the upper hand

the wishes are over, the mystery solved
yet baffeled i stand, as my world dissolves
stars were near, now they are far again
loneliness was far, now its back to win

the lessons have been learnt, yet clueless i feel
my aces turned out to be jokers, i need another deal
yet won i have the little fights
i know how to come out of most plights

stars i can not reach yet, but dreams are still there
sadness i feel, yet the love i still have to share
the tears have flown like the river, yet smiles creep in too
with every dark night, the hope of the sun is true

so the game of life has won in the end
but paths i have learnt to mend
nothing is as i had thought itll be
but reality is the show, dreams are the fees...

loneliness

sitting on the side
I watch life go by
the smile left a while ago
tears visit too often
in a world full of love
I sit alone, orphoned
when the thunder screams loud
and the wind growls
i hide behind the steady rock
hurt i try so hard to block
shadows of a life once lived
haunt me, testing what is left to give
a song that i used to hum
its tune to me has now been shunned
and alone i stand, un noticed
forgotten, isolated, without been given a notice...
and i try, cling, beg
reminding them of the promises long said
but on deaf ears my pleas fall
and I let go, resigned
wilting are my dreams
forgotten are my screams
lost is my spirit
crushed is my faith
pain is my freind
and loneliness is now my name