resign...

softly the tears fall
unanswered were my calls
the dreams we saw lie shattered
my confidence in love, again, battered
where do i run ?
where do i hide ?
how do i leave these memories behind?
the scars are atleast mine
through them what once was will shine
the words were again empty promises, unkept
my heart unfortunately they swept
and i rode high in my illusions of forever
thinking through rain and storm, now and ever

then reality came, and the thread snapped
from my dreams I awoke with the clap

now the sun shines, but the light is dim
it doesn't reach the corners that you filled
cobwebs grace the space, tears grace my eyes
with another piece chipped, time flies
just yesterday we spoke of tomorrow
today i await another day in sorrow
alone i stand, recounting my mistakes
wishing life would give us a retake

together you stand, a happy smile
trying to cover the distance mile by mile
not towards me but away
with tears in my eyes, i embrace myself and sway....

Mum

Written for mum few hours before she arrived in manchester for her first visit last year in march!



I sit alone singing a song
Waiting for the person to whom I belong
You sit alone waiting to come
Softly songs of prayers you hum

So far yet so near
My mother, you are so dear
Tears threaten to spill as I smile
Distance is lessening, mile by mile

In few hours you'll be by my side
Pleasure I try but cannot hide
Lonliness has been my friend too long
So I wait, eagerly, for the one to whom I belong

I think of the months, years and days
all the moods, tantrums and phase
illness and celebration and then more
exam fevers and jubilation for the scores

Each moment is precious and full of love undefined
For people like you are so refined
WIth grace and dignity you passed each road
Holding everyone close, when everything around us erode...

The love you give is priceless you see
It's made us what we wanted to be...
and days when self doubt sprouts
Your belief, in us, dispels all doubts

My arms wait to embrace you, tight
longing for the gossip, jokes and fights
You nurtured us and became our friend too
Never stopping, questioning, just letting us do...

Trust in us you have always showed
Even as we walked on different roads
and today you enter my world
glimpses you'll get of all that I have told

Mom, all that I am is you
To reflect your soul, what I won't do...
To make you proud, I dream
For out of all, you are the cream!

it is not the moment which defines its prfoundness but the profoundness that defines the moment. each moment links chapters to the stories of our life and yet we find ourselves wondering when God wills atrt scripting the story. the blankness of the moment is a story in itself uniting millions of people in its helplessness and isolation.

ive seen the smiles and ive seen the tears
ive seen the victories and ive seen the fears
i know happiness and i know sorrow
i know contentment and i know the feeling of being hollow
im been the shadow and ive given the light
i have been one with the soil and ive seared through the height
i have blossemed with the rain
and i have wilted with the pain
yet i have no story to tell
silence yells
i have felt all that was to feel
yet i am numb
i have outwitted many
but infront of life i feel dumb
the stars shine too bright
the moon can cause a fright
i run from my own shadow, scared
unable to befrind, unable to bare
and secrets i hold close to my heart
ending the story before it starts

life

the game of life won in the end
the rules no matter how much i tried to bend
scattered are the hopes and dreams we saw
the good and evil, the sacred and the flawed

so much to achieve, so little time
so much to say, but cant always find the rymes
the stories are unfolding
lifes moulding

the rivers flow to the ocean
each action gets fate in motion
and no matter how preciecely you plan
destiny always seems to have the upper hand

the wishes are over, the mystery solved
yet baffeled i stand, as my world dissolves
stars were near, now they are far again
loneliness was far, now its back to win

the lessons have been learnt, yet clueless i feel
my aces turned out to be jokers, i need another deal
yet won i have the little fights
i know how to come out of most plights

stars i can not reach yet, but dreams are still there
sadness i feel, yet the love i still have to share
the tears have flown like the river, yet smiles creep in too
with every dark night, the hope of the sun is true

so the game of life has won in the end
but paths i have learnt to mend
nothing is as i had thought itll be
but reality is the show, dreams are the fees...