way back into love...

why is it that life tests you even when u have declared defeat?
why is it that everytime you pick yourself up someone u thought u could lean on pushes u down?
why is that when you look back and hope to find everyone standing rt behind u, u find urself standing there..alone and very scared.

it doesnt matter if its a natural calamity or a broken heart. the fact is that it hurts. a lot. and even though no one will see why, you do.

so with these thoughts floating around my head, i looked for something that makes sense. and i sat down to do what i do best, rant my grief on paper. yet even words seemed to betray me today and then i heard a song. it seemed that the writer wrote what i needed to say.

ive been living with a shadow over head
ive been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
ive been lonely for so long
trapped in the past, i just cant seem to move on

ive been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
just incase i ever need them again someday
ive been setting aside time, to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

all i want to do is find a way back into love
i cant make it through without a way back into love

ive been looking for soemone to shed some light
not just somebody to get me through the night
i could use some direction, and im open to your suggestions

all i want to do is find a way back into love
i cant make it through without a way back into love
and if i open my heart again
i guess im hoping you'll be there for me in the end

there are moments when i dont know if its real
or if anybody feels the way i feel
i need inspiration, not just another negotiation

all i want to do is find a way back into love
i cant make it through without a way back into love
and if i open my heart to you
im hoping you'll show me what to do
and if you help me to start again
you know that i'll be there for you in the end

(music and lyrics)