Friends

A great guy once wrote, '...its been a while since i woke up, but it seems as if i have just been to the end of the universe and back. somehow, something shifted and somewhere, something stirred. I guess I am hitting the wrong keys all over again....'

Dunno what he was trying to convey but i found myself relating to these feelings today. As i surfed through the internet I was confronted by my past, a past that i had thought i had left behind. Yet my heart broke once again and the pain was as it had been all those years ago. They say time heals but it seems to me that people hope, that with time you forget the hurt; or that something else comes along that hurts more than the last hurt did. Been down those roads a couple of time now, yet this pain was as fresh as it was before. And as i avoided dream, because this time my wish of finding dreams which i believe are reality waiting to happen, had happened and somewhere down the line it became a nightmare. they say you learn from your mistake but what do you do when you cant find the mistake in what everyone says is a mistake? who do you go to when the person who could turn your every tear into a smile is the reason for your tears? My life was shifting into flashbacks as the memories eroded the barriers i had taken so long to build. They say a picture is worth a thousand words, hereafter I will never doubt that notion.

so i lay there wondering where to go, who to go to, how to cope with another self inflicted painful situation and then hope came calling. My room was flooded with sunlight as my heart was flooded with love my friends brought with them. And I suddenly remembered I am not alone,
not in this situation, not in the circumstances and not in life. And as the day has ended, I await to dream a dream, because I know my world doesn't crumble that easily, it withstood the storm, it can withstand the thunder as well.

This is for you guys...Shay and Reena..for unknowingly making my day....

Friends are the angles that guide you through the fire
they stand by you as you burn through hurts pyre
they hold you close when in pieces you break
with them by your side you raise the stakes

when God throws a curve ball, they help you withstand
with all doors closing, your vision, they help you expand
and with their words of love you smile away the pain
guided by their belief you save yourself from going insane

love is a free fall, you loose all control
and when in your panic, you grasp for anything to hold...
remember a friend is there to catch
faith, God in his kingdom has dispatched...

fall a free fall today, break the barriers complete...
add to the love in the world, help hate deplete
and as you walk don't crush the pieces lying on the sand
another broken heart.... with faith in your heart, support the shaking hand...