lessons

As i sit alone i brush the dust that has settled. i unravel the boxes filed and stored of moments lived, memories left untold. A glimpse of what once was, of dreams i dreamt and goals i set. i remember a time when nothing was impossible, when confidence came in tons and dreams were reality waiting to happen. And somewhere down the line i slipped, i let life overtake my hopes, the goals became further away and the dreams became a distant memory. Every now and then i sit just like today and make a vow of what will be, i hold the moment in my hand and take charge knowing that things will be different from today. Then tomorrow comes, and more let downs; obstacles that i cannot cross, dreams that fall apart and tears that become a part of me.

Disillusioned? definitely not! Depressed? never! Unhappy? sometimes! Disheartened? can't be!

then what is it that makes us fall back and getting up suddenly becomes such a challenge?. what is it that makes us question our potential when as a child unaware of our hidden talents we know we can conquer the world? where did the security go? where did the promises go? when did the promises break?

I don't look for an answer, there is none as i have found. Just this point that brings an overwhelming sense of sorrow as you look around and question the very existence of questions. You want to go back to what once was, to become the person you wanted to be, to feel the happiness that flowed through you as now uncertainty sometimes seems to flow.

and the irony of the situation is that the only thing that can make these doubts go away is the same thing you needed even when you knew everything was yours. Its the touch of a loving hand, the comforting words of wisdom, and the security that when you fall there is someone behind you. Such a simple pleasure for such complex questions. and as you soak the love that they give, you dream another dream, you open another door where the last shut, you sigh with a sense of satisfaction, knowing that the ball is still rolling, the destination is yet to be found.